Here I Am.

Here I am;

finished with the most intense, life-changing year I've ever had;

conscious of the fact that my childhood and my high school life are no longer applicable;

seeing 2009 as a year of unbelievable testing, struggle, realization, understanding, and essentially unmeasurable growth.

Here I am,

understanding that although 2009 is finished,

I am not finished with it.

I wish so much that I began this blog earlier so that I could see my pains and struggles, my horrible and broken self in written form

...and praise God with even more joy than that which is already in my heart for every single prayer he has answered, every lesson he has taught me, every struggle of which he brought me out, every blessing he has showered on me. I look back on 2009, rejoicing in all the badbecause I see the light of the glories of God that have overshadowed them.

As I reflect on last year, I see more and more how God has worked in my life, and I am not finished (nor do I think I truly will ever be finished) realizing ...everything He has done for me just last year alone.

So, here I am,

exactly one week away from beginning the college life,

a good first week's start into the new year,

reflecting on how God has worked in my life,

here I am now asking God to work through my life.

So I'll stand, with arms high and heart abandoned,

In awe of the one who gave it all.

I'll stand, my soul, Lord, to you surrendered,

All I am is yours.