Faith Despite Fear.

Let ALL things their Creator bless

And worship Him in humbleness

OH PRAISE HIM

ALLELUIA.

Despite my current fears about grades,

frustrations with myself this past semester,

worries about the relationships in my life,

I am INCREDIBLY thankful to God,

For HE has blessed me with the ability to still worship him.

Take my fret, take my fear

ALL I have, I'm leaving here.

And I will worship YOU LORD

ONLY YOU LORD.

God is good.

I am a horrible person;

undeserving of anything,

unconfident in my abilities,

immature, inconsistent, indecisive.

Inandof myself, I am worthless.

So why am I HAPPY?

Because GOD gives me worth.

Because GOD has given me such a blessed life.

And because all of the crap inside me

doesn't matter to GOD.

Text Message!

I absolutely love getting text messages like this:

(I know, it's a little late. But nonetheless uplifting!)

God never ceases to remind me how much He has blessed me with the greatest friends.

Apartment!

Today my future apartmentmates and I signed for our VERY FIRST APARTMENT!

That's right. We officially have a place to live!!!

After months of waiting on a crappy property owner (who ended up telling us of our slim chance of getting our desired apartment)

God's amazing grace got us an apartment. =)

And as I reflect on what exactly renting our own place to live means,

I realize...I am an adult now.

Well. That's technically not true...

But we are going to be living in our own place

OUR PLACE.

Where we keep track of bills, each other, food, etc.

I'm turning nineteen this year.

---I remember wanting to be sixteen.

I'm in college.

at Berkeley.

I (through God) finally made it.

It's so weird.

Despite my excitement,

I think I'm having a little trouble embracing it.

Bittersweet weekend.

I am really, really bummed that I missed CCF this weekend for TWO reasons:

1. I was looking forward to the speaker;

2. My UCMerced homeskillets came !!!!

Oh man. But at least I wasn't the only one who didn't like that I was M.I.A. In fact, my fellow SUPer just told me:

JS and I have a relationship that facebook would call "it's complicated."

BUT on the bright side:

I got to spend a lovely weekend out on a a secluded, far away from civilization ranch out in King City with my sorority. LOVELOVELOVE them!

PS. this was a quick post...because now I am off to fill an APARTMENT application. wow, I guess I really am growing up....