choices.

i made a choice today.
i pray to God it was the right one.
i sincerely hope that everything will turn out for the better, and what i'm feeling currently is just temporary.
i hate second guessing myself, and wondering if i had done what is right, and thinking how i could have handled things better, and worrying about how i affected who i affected, and wanting to just not think about my decision... and wishing for oh so much more.
i hate psyching myself out and telling myself i was wrong.

a note more to myself than anyone else: i have a lot of things to sort out in my life. i've been struggling with so much for these past few years. now is the time to make a choice and stop standing on the sidelines being indecisive. right now, i have made the choice to stop complaining, stop waiting, stop running away. i have made the choice to seek God and seek help from those capable of guiding me towards the right choices in my life.

i need to make a few more choices today; i pray that God would help me choose the right ones.