i want to be on fire for you!
to be so consumed by you,
that these feelings i have just burn away.

i imagine writing each and every one of these depressing thoughts and saddening feelings
on a piece of paper
and then lighting each insignificant piece on fire
and watching them disintegrate into ashes
and fly away and leave me forever

i pray right now for protection against the advances of the enemy into my mind
for renewed vision for You
for discipline, discipline, discipline
and the ability to RESPOND to you


God, i'm so out of it.