New Lessons.

I feel like God has been teaching me a lot these past few weeks.

Yet the more I learn about myself and about God, the increase in the number of questions that tag along.

- I've realized that I have put my trust in the wrong things. But what should I put my trust in? And how do I do it?

- I've realized that I may be undergoing what St. John of the Cross termed "the dark night." But what do I do now? Where do I go from here?

When I feel like I've finally firmed my relationship with Him, He pulls the rug out from under me, shakes me, and reminds me that the search for the narrow gate isn't easy. Reminds me that I'll never figure Him out. Reminds me that I'll always be struggling.

The J side of me finds it hard to come to terms with that uncompromising fact.